Trying to Understand

I quote a post from the other day about really wanting the NHS Graduate Job,
"I pray that I will be accepted onto this Graduate Training Scheme in the NHS. I want to help people, I have no skill in medicone at all, but my accounting skills can be used within this orgianisation! Although I have always wanted to do this job, it has to be the will of God; I know that if this does not work out then He will open doors and provide in another area - I have every faith.
(Note to self - remember this incase it doesnt happen and the devil tries to make me feel stupid for setting my sights too high in the first place.)!!"

Well im pleased today that I have hope because I got an email this morning saying that I wasnt successful to the next round. I always thought that I would be really disappointed at this (I have wanted this for 3 years) but I am supprisingly optimistic at the open doors God has around the corner instead. Just another aside, - The Devil has no leway here!! I know I have a hope and Im secure in it!!!

I still have many more job applications to fill in etc... but at the momment am loving the sound of the opportunity to go and teach in Uganda at the school I am fundraising for - wouldnt that just be an amazing job. This is purely a dream writtern on paper but if there is one thing that my Uganda experience has taught me so far its that dreams can be made a reality with the God that we serve, if its His will.

A phrase Beryl said to me in the summer, "God is God regardless of the job you get" has been with me all day. So this job wasnt meant to me, but doesnt mean I need to take it out on God for not obeying my plans, but rather thank Him for it because He is God and has a better will for my life than I can ever imagine. About 2 months ago i would have been asking Him why this was happening, today I look forward more and more excited about what tommorrow holds!!

Wouldnt it be excited if I never ended up as a University Lecturer in Accountancy but as something totally different...I say it would be exciting because I know I have no skills in anything else, and therefore it would not be my power that I succeeded in that area.... ha.... isnt God good!!

So instead of being depressed and sad tonight, I am going to be happy that God has new plans. I will ask Him!! Or as Stuart says consult Him in whispers...(this makes me laugh, especially since I have just started thinking recently of the amount of imagery that is used in Churches... I love it!)

x x

Love this picture from asbojesus site. It sums the whole meaning of what christmas has become up, but I dont want a christmas this year I want a CHRISTmas. Even more inspired about this after the wonderful CU weekend I went on this weekend just gone where we explored Romans.
My God is an awesome God and I love Him with the whole of heart.

In order for this to make any sence, I will need to quote an email sent several months ago, when starting my Queens Guide Award:

"Im so excited!! - It would be so good to help people like the children in Uganda."
"To begin with i really thoiught this was so radical and ridiculous it was beyond belief, but now it all seems to be taking shape, and seeming a tad more realistic!"
"Mum seems to think its a joke - since i hate the heat and have never been on a plane! - but i think its a great plan!!"

So, several months ago I suggest to Caroline that my community action project could be something to do with recycling, etc... etc... or helping children in Uganda. We had sort of settled on recycling - obviously that sounds the most practical, but I knew I had to do something for Uganda. It all fell into shape - Carolines mum and dad knew Alan and Beryl, who happened to be over here at the time. So we met up, thinking that prehaps £1000 would be a realistic target for a year. God had other plans and we walked out having agreed to £6,000!!

£6,000 to build 2 classrooms, and office, and a school kitchen. It was a dream that had been confirmed.
Today its a dream that has come true. The building has been ordered!!

Only £2000 has been sent over so far, another £1000 nearly in the bank account, but the money is coming in faithfully and continually. Its one massive learning curve, and an immensly great experience...

I am happy!