Trying to Understand

I just had to make a memory of this conversation - in the midst of my procastination and groaning to the Lord that I can’t find any motivation to do my thesis a small window pops up at the bottom of my facebook and I have this short and sweet chat with a good friend who has moved out of the area. How good is my God! I love you Lord (said in sign as well of course!)

Lynne jer 29:11 follow your heart go for it you can easily pick up when back xx

1:27pmRachel hiya how are you?

1:27pmLynne you will be a spiritual mother for hundreds im fine thanks xx im in waffle mode lol

1:28pmRachel keep going - i needed to hear that! thank you so much x

1:28pmLynne sometimes we can sit and be still when father wants us to be active now

1:29pmRachel do you think God would be saying that now?

1:29pmLynne he preared you follow your heart

1:30pmRachel thank you so much…… i really so just want to follow my heart but am stuck at the moment as to whether actually i have taken the wrong path or am on the way to taking the wrong path,

1:30pmLynne at this mo what does your heart say

1:30pmRachel all i want to be is active in his will and all i seem to be doing is sitting still getting qualifications. I thought i was in a season of preperation but im starting to realise that the more i stay here im loosing the drive and passion of my God and thats not what he would require so i may in the wrong place…

1:32pmLynne well thats for a reason but we can be bogged down by education your a gifted woman of god and the things you have you needed you have follow your heart if its to early father will bring you back but trust him

1:33pmRachel thats true - thank you.

1:33pmLynne you have your staff and the armour of god and a solid education that equips you to meet the needs they have

1:33pmRachel i need to stop worrying and let him make the decisions, I know that its just a weird feeling not having any concrete plans cos my family cant understand why i am leading my life in this way! very true - i have been thinking about the armour God gives us alot lately too!

1:34pmLynne but you relying on father and thats good dont let your family or others be a stumbling block

1:35pmRachel i know, i try.

1:35pmLynne just have passport and prepare a case so when he says go you go ok xx

1:36pmRachel thank you so much for the words of encouragement. are you serious? - be that ready!!

1:36pmLynne thats ok felt prompted to share

1:36pmRachel Fantastic - i hav tried so hard to position myself in such a place for months removing all my major ties in this country so that I can go like tomorrow if called to! Awesome…!

1:37pmLynne it could be months or a year you know its coming so be ready for his command

1:38pmLynne your feeling of unsettleness idicates i think sooner then later xxx

1:38pmRachel i hope so - i just continue to trust in Him. Theres nothing left that I can do in my own power and strength. Are you down in Colchester any time soon? Would be nice to meet up and catch up properly.

1:39pmLynne thats try he in control enjoy the build up cause you know what he planning for you. im down hopefully may xx

1:40pmRachel great - let me know and maybe we can catch up.

1:41pmLynne you take care hun, just remember ok that enjoy the build up try not to worry xx deffo meet up xx

1:41pmRachel i will do - thanks for what you said…. i just needed to hear that someone else thought the same as me - i always doubt so much what I think I hear God saying! Its a great encouragement - thank you. xxx

1:43pmLynne your welcome. praise the lord he uses ppl that not in midst of things to build up and encourage thank you father you are good all the time xx