Trying to Understand

In light of everything that has gone on over the past 7 or so months and its accumulation, spirirually if not necessarily physically, on Sunday I wasn’t really looking forward to yesterday evening. I was challenged through.

To begin with I was defensive and really closed, it was so hard… nothing was said. Once it came up in conversation and I reacted how I had planned to saying that what was going on had been finished and sorted I felt much better. At the pub I had even got to the stage where I could say I was sorry for not being myself at church lately - this was enough; an accumulation of sunday after prayer with SR and tonight, and the foundations for healing have been laid. Following that something in the atmosphere and the spiritual realms changed; it was like 2 long lost friends being re-united. I am glad, thats how it should be.

As I said before, its finished, forgotten, and forgiven. Now it can be healed.
Im learning there is something completly different with Christian friendships that is lacking in non-Christian ones. Im reminded of times when I have been in positions with friends like this before and both ended in a much worse way, with very little scope for healing; rather the opposite - a very hurt heart.

I much prefer this way - with the understanding, comfort and grace of Jesus filling in the cracks, as opposed to bitterness.