Wednesday 21st May – A day spent on the floor.
There’s nothing that I can do but stand and bow to His majesty. I have spent the majority of today on the floor for several reasons:
· God is teaching me my position.
· It’s good to be facedown in front of the Father. Standing in awe of Him and completely helpless allows for His glory and power to shine through.
· My legs are like lead after the Holy Spirit gymnastics crunches and actions I’ve been doing uncontrollably since Sunday.
God is good, ALL THE TIME.I’m pretty blown away by all that God has done in me, through me and around me these past few days that I was glad today was much slower and contemplative. I really sensed that God through His spirit was sealing everything that had been stirred up within us over the past three days. Gods spirit was equally if not more powerful during the quiet times and I just felt His touch and Him expressing His love for me. We reached that intimate place, and I desire it so much more; daily. I know that I can access it daily, I just need to commit to do so and the desire to keep seeking His face and His presence.
Neil asked me to pray for Ally about the business her and Tim have started. The spirit was pouring into me so much before I started praying that I could hardly stand up. God said after that He was just filling me up to ensure I had His words to say – I’m glad I have His words! Even though I was scared, I felt as if I was doing something right. God has started to use me – actually He’s always been using me but I have never fully allowed myself to surrender to it and loose the ultimate control of my words and actions. It’s certainly true that in giving out we receive.
The last bout of worship really sealed things and assured me of the things that God had whispered in the afternoon / morning whilst I spent 2 hours completely drunk and unable to stand slouched by the door.
I’m just totally astounded that God chose to use me, little old me, I never thought Id be doing these things but here I’ve been this week speaking into microphones, praying for people, worshipping with my hands in the air, crying in public, prophesying, jumping around and crunching in the spirit etc… etc… It just illustrates to me again and again the continuing goodness of His character and His desire to pour out gifts to us all. I just need to be open and remove my boundaries. Now I’m out of my box there is certainly no going back inside – I’m sure Chris Ling will make sure of that, even if no-one else does!
Really got to know Christ and others which was great and I’m reminded at how amazing my church family are. As Neil said yesterday, they are all on my side, so why should I feel embarrassed or judged?! This is the best place I have ever been in and I never want to leave – even if God takes me all around the world Lexden will always be my home. I have a relationship with everyone and some of them know more about me than my own family do. I’m truly blessed.
God did an amazing miracle in Diana Hubbard today when He healed her lungs. I believe in faith that’s he got a new pair of lungs. She was able to walk around without her oxygen machine which was brilliant. As Grace said that film crew are coming to see her healing testimony and not the person waiting on the list for a lung transplant. Our God, My God, Is a God of miracles.
Has been great to hear from Becky that the prayer and words me and Hannah gave her last night were comforting and a blessing to her. It’s a real encouragement to keep going in that, continually stepping out and just asking for more. I’m asking for more God….
As I adjust to normal life its going to be strange seeing how all of this fits into place, but I cant wait if I’m honest. It could be interesting! I started to feel deflated this evening that that was it, Intensive all over, but God reminded me that this was actually the beginning. This has been the commissioning and the filling of our vessels, so that the overflow we receive from now on is for His people in their places. We need to go to them, we cant just wait with open doors and expect them to come to us.
You give me the words Lord God, Ill speak them.
You give me the actions Lord God, Ill do them.
You give me the opportunities Lord God, Ill embrace them.
You give me the strength Lord God, Ill use it.
You give me the people Lord God, Ill love them.
Whatever you give me Jesus, Ill do, Ill use, cos’ its all for you and I’m all for you.
Your free range chicken – Rachel. xx
