Trying to Understand

Pack holiday has been awesome, but I’ve missed church like never before. I just have this fire in my stomach and I want to fuel it more and more… I long for you Jesus.

I stand against the spirit of religion in this world. We need Jesus not religion. I pray Lord that the effect church has on the young Brownies yesterday will not be remembered. They didn’t see you through hymns and religious ways – reveal yourself to them Lord.

I feel judgemental about not liking church on Sunday, probably because I missed Lexden so much, but there was a spirit of religion in that building and amongst these people and I just want to break if off Lord and call upon your name and your revival to break out. God loves us for who we are, and if we get into the mindset that He looks at our actions whilst in church we are entering into dodgy ground spiritually. Adrienne couldn’t identify with this being church and I felt that that summed it up. I was asking God for a way to show Him to the girls and on the way home I got the answer – an overnight sleepover at church, where we just happen to visit the church on Sunday morning for an all age event…. There has to be a way that I can show kids church as not all hymns, pews and regimental activity – Jesus is here to be known personally and not through prayers published in a book. I’m sorry Lord, I can feel the anger rising – I lived under religion and ‘rules’ for far too long (9 years lost of building a relationship with my father) that I do not wish this upon this generation. I want to be able to play my part in changing the opinion of the people in my spheres of influence.