Sunday 1st July – Only 9 days to go!
Only 9 days to go, until I start the adventure of a lifetime. I’m so excited inside, but now the time is nearing I’m actually starting to get rather scared and sad – I’m just beginning to realise the things here that I love so much. Church is number 1.
My mouth hurts – not from the wisdom tooth pain because God has healed that, but from constantly smiling for the past 2 weeks and a bit, I’m totally changed – I feel so happy and alive in my spirit its awesome. I am a free range chicken – as the song we sang this evening says (Mine and Chris Ling’s song!) “I AM FREE”. I do just feel completely free! Thank you Jesus.
Simon preached an awesome (spontaneous) sermon tonight on Joash and Revival and the lessons that we can learn from him. He spoke a lot about windows of opportunity and just being ready and willing to jump right through them in faith. I felt God speak to me and say that I can have the desires of my heart. I was shocked; I felt like God obviously hadn’t seen or understood my desires because they are so big, yet He says that I can see them through to fulfilment. He keeps saying it again and again, that I had seen the opportunity and the desires will be fulfilled because if it.
THEN whilst Simon’s praying he says the following to me:
“Rachel. You’re going to have a phenomenal month. You’re going to be outside of your natural comfort zone, your going to be outside of yourself. But to be outside of yourself is to be ecstatic; therefore you are going to be so happy. You do not have to worry about Uganda. You’re going to be outside if yourself, there was a door of opportunity and you went for it. Hallelujah.”I wasn’t trusting that what I was hearing was God because He has to re-affirm it again. But I’m glad I did … and I’m learning to tune into more and more of His language and senses day by day.
I do have this sense of excitement in my spirit coupled with anxiety that Tuesday will leave me in the world without the security of the education system. But, so what! The securities of the wings of Jesus are much safer and comfortable. There will be no walls between me and Him and I inte3nd to enjoy every second of His presence in the holy and intimate place.
